fellas is it gay to buy a boy you just met tight black clothes and let him drive your very expensive car that no one else not even your own brother can drive and bargain away your secrets including the only place that is truly yours just so that you can spend time with him one on one and give him a key to your house and also promise to protect him from his murderous serial killer father and his people and tenderly brush you fingers along his back and then sit and listen to him talk about his life for hours without breaking eye contact once and wrap up his wounds and wash his hair and wear his clothes and offer him your knives which are the only things that make you feel safe and put your hand on the back of his neck to stop him spiralling into panic and buy him matching armbands and tell him that his name is one of three truths and strangle one of the people you promised to protect to get answers and almost get shot by the fbi trying to get to him and literally refuse to leave his side and then break the guy who’s made literally everyone you care about’s life a misery’s arm instead of killing him right then and there just to make sure said boy is okay? asking for a friend
dream me the world; semi-hiatus
iz, xvii, she/her
when people fall in love, they burst into flames
rikohateclub
andrew: [whips out a fucking knife in the locker room and literally STABS kevin]
neil: oh word. it’s only shallow so it’s all good 😌 it might effect exy tho 😔✊
Laila Dermott/Alvarez
Fall in love with someone who feels like the warmth of the sun on a cold January morning, but soothes your heart like the cool waters of the sea on the hottest day of June.
- june & january, nikita gill
4moreaus-deactivated20200203
RENEE WALKER — All for the Game
Neil looked from Renee’s smile to her rainbow-streaked hair to the cross necklace hanging around her throat. He didn’t understand. Renee warned him not to overestimate how good she was, but everyone else said Renee was the gentle soul of the team.
“neil josten,” he mouthed. “number ten, starting striker, foxhole court.”
even if the moriyamas rejected stuart’s truce and came after him, the process had begun. neil josten was in the system to become a real person. he wouldn’t die a lie.
happy birthday to my boy neil abram josten! who is now real and happy and safe ♥
As he listened to them, Neil realized he was happy. It was such an unexpected and unfamiliar feeling he lost track of the conversation for a minute.
for @andrewjsten | kandreil
“it’s fine, coach,” andrew said, catching up to them. he touched neil’s back on his way by, fingers light enough to give neil goosebumps, but didn’t slow on his way to kevin’s side.
riko’s smile could have frozen hell. “i’m not scared of kevin. i know him.”
“you’re going to eat those words,” neil said. “you’re going to choke on them.”
kevin day + neil josten for @marebarrow